So it has come to this. Finally a tipping point to make you realise just how much of a liability I am. It makes all the fun things we did seem false and the effort you put in like it was in vain. I feel quite disgusting thinking I need you in my bed right now. I don't think it's normal to want to make love to someone after not wanting to live at all and the possibility of succeeding was there in some small percentage. I keep saying sorry. But im not. I just don't know what else to say to you. But I may even I feel sorry for you for what I did. I feel bad more than sorry. But saying sorry after you've been bad doesn't make sense does it.
As you can tell I need help. You think I don't love you after me doing what I did my that I say it now and it doesn't mean anything to you. I broke you. I broke you many times. Broke your heart and made you feel wanted. I didn't consider your feelings. I wasn't even thinking of them. That's a display of my ignorance. I can see that. It doesn't mean I don't love you. I love you and I don't love myself. I need to fix it. Im here alive. Stop treating me like I'm dead please. Im alive and i need you. I needed you. I always did. That's why I chose you.
You dont like xs and os.